So my friends threw me a suprise birthday party at a local bar last week. It was nice to know that they still care even though I live an hour to an hour and a half away. I drank 3 car bombs 2 slammers.....and a shot of whatever.......I out drank everyone and was still able to walk and talk fine. Hmmmmm what does that say about me and liquiror? I guess we go way back. So my friend that is suppose to be my "best friend" is the one who threw the party......maybe i was wrong about her. She tried. She knew I was upset and lonely and she made a party for me. Sure there were no candles or presents but my friends were there and in the end isn't that what really makes a party? friends. see ya in a while
Some spanish people keep calling my cell phone.......what the heck this is the third time!
Anyways.......I'm thinking of applying for a second job for the hell of it. Maybe to "hot topic". I probably won't be hired because i can only work one day a week and i won't look as nearly as gothic as they would expect me to........even though my soul has been through a lot more than most painted sad faces.
My friend "A" told me last week that D still doesn't have a headstone on her grave. It's been almost 9 months since her death. I've never gone to her grave. It's to sad to really think of her gone. I miss her more than anything else in or out of my life. This upsets me so much. Between her husband and her family no one even bothered. And I know her father has enough money, he just doesn't give a shit. My friend "A" said we should get one for her, of course I agree. This gets us in a bad situation......one of us has to talk to her husband and ask him if he plans on buy a Marker or what. He pisses me and her off so this is going to end badly no matter who asks. I just wish we could just buy it and then donate it to the cemetary for her grave. I really don't want to deal with this. I'm so upset that she's gone and i really don't want to have to be any kind of charity representative. Not that i don't want her to have the marker i just don't want to talk to anyone about it because i know it's gonna affend someone and then i'm going to be pissed because this should have been taken care months ago and then i might just say something really, really cruel to the person standing of the way of D having the proper respect that she deserves..
